Sunday, March 27, 2011

Life - As We Imagine/Wish/Want it to Be

I had a thought this morning and I put it up on facebook-

"Your life is as great as you imagine it to be" 

 Believe it or not, that statement is true and I am living proof of that. Even if I, myself don't think my life is all that great at the moment I do have a lot to be thankful for and I'm sure there are people who do think I have a great life and wished they could be in my shoes to do what I do and have the experiences I have.  

Let me explain why I'm proof of the above statement:

Growing up surrounded by musicians, my dad and uncles, that's what I knew and that's what my brother and I used to mimic even before we started playing instruments. As we got older, started to play instruments and upon leaving high school all I wanted to do is what I saw my father doing, tour the world playing music in various bands.  I was in a band as a teen, a band with my brother and friends we grew up with who shared the same dream.  But our band hardly did any gigs. We recorded an album and practiced together all the time until we all (by default) started doing other things to earn a living because we were out of school and had to start accepting some sort of responsibility in our respected home situations.  We officially "disbanded' when the drummer decided that he no longer wanted to be a part of it and he was an integral part of our existence so it was never the same without him. We all kept the dream however, together or not, we each wanted to be successful musicians/artists. 

Anyhow back to my point. I kept dreaming of touring, listened to my dads live cassettes on tour with Ziggy Marley and learned all the guitar parts, imagining myself on stage playing the set.  Within a few years of leaving high school, three years to be exact, I started touring with Damaian "Jr Gong" Marley and doing recording sessions with Ziggy & Stephen Marley.  Then in another couple years I started touring with one of Jamaica's most successful artists (Shaggy), and that led to me working/touring with most of of the top acts from Jamaica -  Jimmy Cliff, Diana King, Monty Alexander, Morgan Heritage, Buju Banton to name a few. 

I remember days when I kept saying to myself "I just want to be a touring musician", and that's all I thought about, that's all I visioned, that's what I imagined. I even remember the first time I saw Shaggy perform live and was blown away by the band and how they all performed (1996). Right there I said "I'd want to be in a band like that"...and two years later I was in Shaggy's band. 

So you see, it's not about luck or any random happenings. We all choose our paths either consciously or unconsciously.  If you pay attention to your reoccurring thoughts, beliefs or even the things you say aloud everyday, you'll realize that life as you know it is as a result of your own thoughts, imagination and decisions. No matter what your current situation or circumstance is, you have the power within you to change it forever. See it, say it, imagine it, pray about it and be thankful for everything leading you to where you are and where you intend to be. Whatever you want in life or for your life may not happen the exact way you want it. It may not happen the time when you expect it and it will not be without challenges. But sure enough it will be as you intend it to be.


So what am I up to today? Being thankful for the great life I have and looking forward on greater things to come. 


Love







Wednesday, March 2, 2011

Taking A New Road

I haven't blogged in over a month..wow..I didn't realize it was that long. There has been a lot going on and at the same time not much.

I haven't traveled since Colombia and from the looks of things I won't be going on the road til mid April. I have been working nonetheless so I've managed to balance everything.

Been working on a new song,  a song I actually sang. But I got some criticism the other day which made me have second thoughts about going through with the whole thing so I decided to ask a couple of my colleagues their professional opinions.  I've gotten back good feedback and encouragement.....but I'm still at war with myself. 90% of my whole being wants me to forget about even going there (singing) and the other 10% is fighting really hard to over power the majority. This is something I think will improve my overall performance, bring more to the table when I'm booked for a gig and also have a wider appeal and marketability..So my 10% is holding strong, or at least trying.
It's easy to stay in your comfort zone, never expanding your horizons...Change and growth takes work..I just hope I'm really up for it and get over this self-doubt crap that lingers within, which is more difficult to deal with when faced with criticism especially when you don't like your own voice in the first place ...Yeah, messed up isn't it? But I'm gonna push on through...There has to be a starting point. 
My favorite quote is a Chinese Proverb -  "If we don't change or direction we're likely to end up where we are headed". And I figure I've been heading in the same direction all along, maybe it's time to take a new "road" and see where that leads.

So what am I up to today?  Taking a new road