Not Quite Merry

How many other people not feeling quite merry this year? I'm at home with my sons, the wife's away and I'm pretty sure the holidays would have been much more fun for them if they were too. No gifts for anyone this year....from me at least.  The boys seem fine though, just a regular day for them. I guess they've spent the past two or three Christmases abroad so they've accepted the fact that being home would be different.

I told someone a few weeks ago that I'll be Mr. Scrooge this year but I got it wrong, Scrooge was wealthy.

I have to try and reassure myself all the time that I do have a lot to be thankful for - I have a place to live, there is food in the house, we're healthy, I have a car to go wherever....I have a loving wife, children, extended family and friends.....a job and career (if I may say so).. And I've been able to maintain a decent quality/standard of living. So I do have a lot to be grateful for, and I am. Sometimes the smallest things just get to me.
And you know, I guess one of the things that's picking at me is the fact that I'm leaving Jamaica tomorrow to go to Nigeria with Shaggy. That's my least favorite place in the world to be and it irritates me that this time around I'm compelled to go.  After my first trip to Nigeria I told them I'd never go back and they've actually had shows over there which I declined....They've also been to other African countries which I opted not to go as well. And each time they return everyone says the trip was good. Now given my situation I'm going, trying to be open-minded and optimistic that I will have a good time. I am eager for the day to come when the decision of where and when to travel is mine to make and money won't be the deciding factor.

What else is bugging me? I won't get into it...lets just say the usual stuff that I've blogged about previously.

So what am I up to today?
Continued to work on a song from yesterday (added a bass line), made breakfast for the boys and myself, straightened up the kitchen, now I'm online.  When I'm done with this blog I'm going to put some guitars on the track I mentioned, get my workout on and then we'll start getting ready to head up to my uncle's house for Christmas dinner with the rest of the family - my dad, uncles, bro and their families etc.

Thanks for your time
Blessings To You